It’s funny how all our perceptions of the world suddenly change over time. Year by year, day by day, we change, most probably in very subtle ways that we could hardly imagine. But over the course of time, as nostalgia starts to hit, we suddenly realize how drastic these changes actually are. What we thought was an uber inspiring quote back then can barely be remembered. Our friends back in Kindergarten are mere acquaintances we meet in the hallway. Our rituals back then…have been long forgotten now. It’s funny to say all of these sappy shit now that I’m in my senior year of high school, but it’s true. I always hear my friends tell me that they’re happy I’ve never changed since I met them. That I’ve always remained as Lollie who cares, who does everything, who loves them. It must be partly true then, but there’s also a huge part of that that’s so wrong. I’ve changed. It’s inevitable - we all change. But then again, we never realize it until we reach a certain point of reflection. We never truly see how much or in what way we’ve changed, but we have. And that my friends, is what we like to call life.

So why exactly am I saying this? Have I reached that certain point of reflection? Maybe. Maybe not. But, I am saying this now because as of 18 minutes ago, it is officially the first Friday the 13th of the year. And however non-superstitious or superstitious you may be, we all have different approaches to this very day. For the past few years, I’ve marked every single calendar in three years time ahead of F13s. This year though, I guess it skipped my mind. The funny thing about all of this happening though, is that I didn’t react the way I thought I would have. I laughed about the whole damn thing, more than anything. It was there. It was at that moment of fleeting emotional acceptance that I realized how daunting the pace of life could be. I’ve accepted things differently now. And I feel much better at just the thought of it. I am me. And I will continue to be me no matter how much changes I go through each nanosecond of year of the 365 days of the 758454365 years I will live. I am Kath. I am Lollie. I am blessed. :’)

Happy F13 guys! :D

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